Your My Beloved

Ever since I was a little girl I would dream about growing up::
1) Find my prince charming
2) Getting married
3) Live happily ever after.
The sad part about growing up is that the beautiful images you drew in your mind about love, romance, and men are a fantasy. In my first relationship I had hoped it would fit all my expectations and dreams, instead it was a scaring experience that I prayed to forget everyday. Ever since then I had a new perspective on love::
1) All couples under the age of 18 would not last and they would end up heartbroken.
2) Men are not princes in shining armour protecting us from evil. They are manipulative human beings who care about nothing but their own selfish desires.
3) If you like a guy, never let him know. His head will swell up and then he'll use your feelings against you.
A bit of a change from my childhood fantasies. It took me a long time before I started thinking well of guys  again. My good friends from church, youth, and theatre are to thank for that. Eventually I started trusting again and even started liking someone. I had my guard up for so long. Watching him to see who he truly was. After a while I was convinced that he was God centered, kind, and honest. I decided to take a chance. The following month was a ride of hot/cold, yes/no, in/out, up/down. (Katy Perry explains it very well) I was frusterated. So many emotions were bottled up inside me. I didn't know what to think.
Then one night as I was driving home from a party where I had seen him I was listening to my music. The song "Beloved" by Tenth Avenue North started to play. As soon as I heard the lyrics I started to cry. All my emotions letting go. I knew that God was telling me something that he had been trying to tell me from the very beginning.
God had given me the desire to be loved as a child. He had given me those dreams. He was the one who wanted to fulfill them. He wanted to be my prince charming. He wanted to protect me from evil. He wanted to be my one true love. God wanted to be my everything.
I can't explain how I felt in that moment. It was like a burden had been lifted. My heart's desire to be loved was satisfied beyond anything I could have imagined. I love God more then anything I could ever imagine or dream up. He is the reason I live...

Your chasing lovers that won't satisfy
Won't you let me make you my bride
You will drink of my lips and you'll taste new life
Your My Beloved